Word On The Street Is, You've Got A Secret, Paper Walls Unfold As You'd Expect

he opened the shades to his room that have been sealed closed for years.
i wonder if anyone else sees the metaphor in it all.
he's finally letting the sun in.

and letting people see inside.
im glad hes happy.

In Between Dreams...

im coming back to life today.
real life.
i put it on pause for so long.
like when you keep laying in bed pretending you don't have to get up for work even though you do.
you know it's still there and going to happen but you just enjoy that few moments of procrastination...
i let mine go on too long.
i was dreaming for a long time before today, im not even sure where i've been or how long i've actually been gone but its too much for me to handle at this moment.

so im going to go have breakfast with my parents and my little sister for some random reason.
and wonder the whole time why my life threw itself back at me in a handful. and how im gunna come back home and explain in words these intangible feelings.
i just need to remember i like them.
cause i do:)

Got A Little Tin Cup With My Heart In It

this year is a new beginning.
a decade of whatever got me here, is behind us now.
im sad that some of the best times i'll ever have can never be recreated.
and im sorry that some things had to end like they did.

today im thanking god for this new page in my book.
forget the pages.. im burning the old book and starting a new one.
the ink on every page won't bleed with tear stains this time.
and im writing it in neon bright crayons.

thank you god, for reminding me that im better.
every shooting star i see now, i wish for something better.
and i almost forgot how powerful the feeling of wanting can be.
when you send all your energy and your soul into wanting something..
it can take you over, and be stopped by nothing.
i almost forgot this power, because i always used it to wish him back to me..
but what if i want something bigger. something better. something more.

thank you for letting us be good like this,
for shining a little light on my heart for a while,
and for helping me find the strength to open up and let the rays illuminate inside.
good things are happening now.
i think they've been there all along, i just needed to let them happen.

so thank you, god, for today.