Got A Little Tin Cup With My Heart In It

this year is a new beginning.
a decade of whatever got me here, is behind us now.
im sad that some of the best times i'll ever have can never be recreated.
and im sorry that some things had to end like they did.

today im thanking god for this new page in my book.
forget the pages.. im burning the old book and starting a new one.
the ink on every page won't bleed with tear stains this time.
and im writing it in neon bright crayons.

thank you god, for reminding me that im better.
every shooting star i see now, i wish for something better.
and i almost forgot how powerful the feeling of wanting can be.
when you send all your energy and your soul into wanting something..
it can take you over, and be stopped by nothing.
i almost forgot this power, because i always used it to wish him back to me..
but what if i want something bigger. something better. something more.

thank you for letting us be good like this,
for shining a little light on my heart for a while,
and for helping me find the strength to open up and let the rays illuminate inside.
good things are happening now.
i think they've been there all along, i just needed to let them happen.

so thank you, god, for today.