Would You Prefer The Easy Way...No? Well Okay Then.

i don't like feeling alone anymore.
i've spent the past year or so trying to weed out all this evil in my life.
turns out the weeds have taken over the garden and all im left with is a pile of dirt.
with my every hardship; instead of reassurances and guidance, im being upstaged.
like, my problems are so insignificant in comparasson to everyone around me.
i have it so easy.
but heaven forbid my life go right for once, because then im just bragging.
also i was unaware that it was disrespectful to have calm mature, yet slightly confrontational conversations with my best friends.
"you're my best friend, you can talk to me about anything."
i mean that.
even the ugly stuff.
especially if it's directly pertaining to that very relationship.
i don't want to walk on eggshells anymore with anyone, i wouldn't expect that myself.
if you ask me thats what friendship is about.
getting through the hard times.
together.

im still creating monsters day by day.
im the cupid of comeradery.
but im always in left field by myself.
they're droping like flies out there.

my inspiration is flickering and burning out.
i've lost sight of the things i never thought i could be without.
i never wanted it to end up as me against the world.