The Truth About Forever..

how do you know you're over someone?
or something?
i don't think the pain ever goes away, it only calms into a dull ache.
my mind is more easily distracted lately.
i find less and less time to sit and dwell on how it all turned out.
even when we talk, its like we're these two friends who talk to eachother like normal people.
frankly, it has me a little worried.

but he's happy.
i've long since decided thats what i care about the most.
forever isn't as long as we imagine it to be, so im taking the first step on my own.
im realizing that time won't stand still and wait for me to catch my breath,
i have to keep running if i want to keep up.

i dreamt about him last night again.
but, his face didn't lurk behind every thought today.
i wonder if this is it, if it's gone.
if we're over for the rest of forever now.
but our song is on,
and i can't help but smile at the memories you've probably suppressed by now.

im moving though now,
and that's a big step.
im letting the rest of my life go on.
im learning not to wait.
or at least, im picking up a book in the waiting room instead of watching the seconds tick by on the clock.