The Truth About Forever..

how do you know you're over someone?
or something?
i don't think the pain ever goes away, it only calms into a dull ache.
my mind is more easily distracted lately.
i find less and less time to sit and dwell on how it all turned out.
even when we talk, its like we're these two friends who talk to eachother like normal people.
frankly, it has me a little worried.

but he's happy.
i've long since decided thats what i care about the most.
forever isn't as long as we imagine it to be, so im taking the first step on my own.
im realizing that time won't stand still and wait for me to catch my breath,
i have to keep running if i want to keep up.

i dreamt about him last night again.
but, his face didn't lurk behind every thought today.
i wonder if this is it, if it's gone.
if we're over for the rest of forever now.
but our song is on,
and i can't help but smile at the memories you've probably suppressed by now.

im moving though now,
and that's a big step.
im letting the rest of my life go on.
im learning not to wait.
or at least, im picking up a book in the waiting room instead of watching the seconds tick by on the clock.

All I Need Is A Jetpack And Roller Skates To Get This Started

confrontation is leering around the corner.
i can feel it, we all can.
playing hide and seek is only fun for so long, and then its time to grow up.
its time to make peace finally, and move on.
be friends, be aquaintances, be lovers, be together.. whatever the case may be.
but for the sake of us all it needs to be good.

waiting to see who takes the leap is all anyone can do now.
i know it'll be me, it always was.
i dont want to be the one to put it all behind me like there was nothing he could have done.
but he's done his part, i guess.

i don't know what to say, or where to go or how to be.
us, i guess.
its all we know how to be.
maybe thats all i can ask.
maybe thats all anyone can ask.
without question, or consequence, or secrets and lies.