It's Taken Me This Long, Baby But I Figured You Out

i looked like a zombie when i walked into school today.
i know, because my friend told me as soon as she set eyes on me,
fifteen minutes out of bed.
i was still half asleep, and still half in dreamland.
i think only because i didn't want to leave..

i dreamt the most vivid dream of him last night.
he told me to just come with him.
i took his hand, and we walked through the city for what felt like forever.
it was so real, and normal and perfect and exactly how it would be.
i was so happy.

i felt him around me all day.
i caught the smell of him in the air.
i looked for him when i passed all the places he could be.

and of course, just now when i finally got home..
he talks to me.
for the first time in days and days.
the very second my name poped up on his stupidly tiny little computer screen.
thats how i know he dreamt about me to.

now, my mind has been blown.
again.
like, just now.
i just discovered his creepy little secret.

a seperate account on instant messenger just for me eh?
how sweet.
just so i can't see how much you love your girlfriend
or where you really are.
just so you can secretly tell me things, and talk to me with no one knowing.
"see babe, she's blocked. and my screen name says i love YOU."
not to meeeeee:)
fuckingassholeman.

GAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!

the worst part is that i think im right.
he told me before, a long time ago that he'd done it before.
that he used an old one, and would sign on now and then when he knew i'd be there just to see if id say hello.
sometimes i did.

he wont answer me now.
because i won the last time.
whoever talks next loses.
but i know i pray for it every second.
all those silly little lights and signs that tell me he's sitting behind his computer desk too.
they're mocking me.
but i think i've caught on by now.

the more i think about it, the more it explains EVERYTHING.
well, maybe not everything but almost.