Her Voice Was Soft And Cool, Her Eyes Were Clear And Bright, But Shes Not There

my life could not be more perfect right now.
thats why i can't seem to make the words come out anymore.
i miss having all these feeling that needed to be sorted through.
not knowing what's going to happen next.
although i think now im too busy actually living my life than wondering what to do about it.
theres a person coming out of me that i didn't know existed.
i still feel like im missing some of it though.
like i should be happier than i am in this one moment of reflection.
a person who adores me tells me and shows me everyday, and i believe him.
he sees megan fox when he looks at me.
he gives me everything i want.
i happily wake up for work every day.
i don't think about leaving early or calling in sick.
its fantastic.
...isnt it?

i couldnt be more greatful... but i could be enjoying it more.
im not sure i know how but im getting there.