I Wish You The Best, But I Could Do Without It.

i wonder if it'll ever get any easier..
if the days will go by faster, if i'll ever stop picturing your face in everyone i see.
i look for you everywhere i go, because i dont want to forget what you look like, or how those butterflies feel in my stomache everytime i see you, and i just want to see that look you'll give me.
it'll tell me everything.
cause we've done this before.
and then gone back and told eachother every hidden message behind every stolen glance, and i hadn't made it up.
i was right about it all.
so now, i think i'll know.

im scared i'll see nothing except indifference.
the spark was always there, even in the hatred, even in the guilt..
it was like a surge of electricity when we passed.

i think the most important thing i learned was that love, without trust, can exist.
it's the most dangerous, and sometimes most rewarding game.
but i've found its much too dangerous, and no one deserves to live day to day with the risk of losing everything at the drop of a hat.

but maybe thats why i loved the way i did.
his predictable inconsistancy, was the one thing i could always count on.
now i dont know where my next downfall is comming from.

you are my sweetest downfall, i loved you first.