So Close, To Something Better Left Unknown

i can feel it in my bones.

its hard to tell how long it's been now.
the encounters began alot sooner than ever before.
of course i had anticicipated the reprocussions of the incident a few weeks ago..
and of course i had assumed it would involve having to aknowledge one another's existance in a court of law.
i wanted to kill him right there in that room.
he knew it too, he was doing it on purpose.
but he hugged me.

the other day another random series of coincidences lead us to opposing ends of the phone lines.
that was the last i heard of him, except for a few non-direct facebook acknowledgements.
i know what he's doing.
only because he's told me what he was up to everytme before.
this is us communicating.
and it's kind of a big deal.

am i really this naieve?
or even worse, this wraped up in him.

to make matters worse, or perhaps slightly more in my favor..
his second best friend has his eyes on me apparently.
i find this extremely amusing.
he does not.
haha.